Sunday, September 13, 2009
i had a bad day... every slightest thing could rub me the wrong way , make me roll my eyes in distaste and feel disgusted. makes me want to keep myself and ignore the people next to me.
is this PMS? sigh.
always in a state of hoping, waiting, wondering & knowing there is no happy ending. it is tough. not moving forward in the right way. & how do i stop myself from doing so? truly & completely understand why people sometimes knowingly do the wrong things even though they could choose not to.
Sunday, September 06, 2009
i haven blush this hard in years.
my face was burning and i was so very embarrassed. i felt like i was transported back into secondary sch coz that was the last time i blushed so hard & i blushed over the same kind of issue as well.
BGR- teasing.
people really didnt have to be so gleeful that they have something to entertain themselves with.
but regardless of the teasing, it is nice to be able to see the colleague again. & i am not really sure when is the next time gonna be...
i always hate those scenes in idol dramas when the lead characters missed bumping into each other by mere twist of fate. or simply having a time difference of 3 seconds. or simply choosing to turn different directions.
it is heart wrenching to know and witness that.
life is never straight forward isnt it?
i got my hopes dashed TWICE by murphy's law. i am pretty crushed to say the least. the feeling of burst balloons must be what i am experiencing now. i am just left with airs of disappointments so bad that i feel like crying. cause by no choice of mine, i disappointed my best buddy.
i wish so badly to make my promise come true & its killing me that i cant fulfill it.
sigh sigh.