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Sunday, May 20, 2007

in terms of r/s, i duno what i want. okay, i do. but not specifically.

i seek perfection. unless u r IT, then u r not. but still, i know there can never be perfection, but in eyes of some1 smitten, every flaw is not a flaw but something else to be giggled upon. at least i used to think this way.

i refused to go out with you, cause, i do not want to send mixed signals. i seen friends' crush who felt they had chance when really ...the girl knows he does NOT STAND a chance. everything she did could be interpreted as mixed signals. i thought that was cruel n i never want to do something that i despiced.

then again... is it because i think too much?

but anyway... i dont know who am i lookin for to complete the hole in my heart.

should i try? trying is tiring too in itself.

but if u never try, u never know.

maybe just when i am ready to give it a chance, the guys turns his head n becomes dishearted. n in the end, all i accomplised was to chased away some1 who will treat me good.

n i am not even playin hard to get.

bumped into K-couple, n they looked like some old married couple who r past caring about looking good for each other. n they r only 20. though granted, they were just back from a neighborhood library.

hee. maybe i am just more vain.

3:07 PM

Saturday, May 12, 2007

i really duno what is the problem with me. why am i so reluctant to just to know some1 better with no strings attached.

my friend once said when a guy confesses it spoils everything. i used to disagree. coz if u like some1, u should let that some1 know. but it takes extreme sensitivity n smarts to know when is a good time to confess. i think i nthis case, its always beettter to late than early. if you let the girl know too early, she is on her guard n its harder to progress even just as friends. GAH.

to go out or not to go out? to know him better or not? the truth is i dun even noe i wanna noe him better or not.

if i agree to go out, does this equate to giving him hope? only to dashed it? then if its really dashed... our friendship is gonna be akward as well.

ok, i guess i've arrived at the crux of the matter. blame it on my star sign. i just want friends, need friends, more than i need a guy.

i dun like the dating game. i should go be a nun.

sigh... i can see he really cares abt what i say.

still got time. i guess.

11:45 AM

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