Saturday, July 30, 2005
Thursday, July 28, 2005
this song has set up a tent inside my brain !!! i think i might *gasp* buy the album..( coz i always cant dl the mp3 LAHz. )
Desperado, why don't you come to your senses,
You've been out ridin fences for so long now,
Oh and you're a hard one,
but I know that you've got your reasons,
The things that are pleasin' you
can hurt you somehow.
Don't you draw the Queen of Diamonds boy, s
he'll beat you if she's able.
You know the Queen of Hearts is always your best bet.
Now it seems to me
some fine things have been laid upon your table,
But you only want the ones you can't get.
Desperado, you ain't gettin no younger,
Your pain and your hunger,
they're drivin you home,
And freedom, oh freedom,
well that's just some people talkin.
Your prison is walking through this world all alone.
Don't your feet get cold in the wintertime,
The sky won't snow and the sun won't shine,
It's hard to tell the nighttime from the day.
And you're losin all your highs and lows,
Ain't it funny how the feelin goes away?
Desperado, why don't you come to your senses,
Come down from your fences- open the gates.I
t may be rainin, but there's a rainbow above you.
You'd better let somebody love you,
LET SOMEBODY LOVE YOU.
You'd better let somebody love you,
before it's too late.
i am starting to feel like a MS ( Media Student, according to Project Pilot, which i wont take part anyway.)
i look at the Nike's most recent ad/IMC campaign and i think its REALLY very good.
went to orchard today and the lightboxes was occupied by Nike. the shoes were even on display.
the slogan was Reincarnate. on closer look, the font wasnt a simple computer-designed font but actually the shoes itselves.
and when i reach home. i couldnt escape from their marketing campaign either.
i was about to go to toilet or what but i stop just to watch the TV commerical . coz it was so damm interesting. and good.
it featured a ah-pek aged runner, talkin to his schizoprenic self who was persuading him to stay behind and stop running. but, of course, he WANTED to run away lah....... so, no what matter his second half said, he tried his best to resis the temptation to stay put.
it reminded me of fight club the movie but anyway...
that guy finally broke the mental hold (duh)....... broke free enough to run towards whatever that was ahead of him in the old weather-beaten country road ...
the tagline was somethin like, leave your old self behind.
Reincarnate.
the message behind is kind of inspirational. inspiring. it had definately inspired mi.
cool right. break free of old( bad ) habits and then u can reincarnate. the idea is so cooll lah.
this is SO what i am doing to do.
its the first time i feel that i can really appreciate a good marketing campaign. coz by now, i actually have a tiny tiny idea what consituents to a good marketing campaign. i cant help gushin abt how brillant this campaign is. its even better than the one SilkAIr done in side the MRT cabin lor. Fakes leaves, grass , sand and all.
i wonder how much do the people earn for that.
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
i keep hearing people telling mi i am MEAN.
when arshad commented that i am mean, for something i said( duh )... i snapped right back at him and ask:" do u have a bigger vocabulary? stop usin the word mean!"...( sorry arshad!)
i also keep hearing people complaining that OTHER people are MEAN. ( so Mean loR, that idiot, blah blah blah...)
so...i seriously pity the word MEAN. it is so very OVERused. no one ever gives it a rest! POOR THING, right? so i decided i shall not use the word MEAN anymore. Or should I say, i will TRY lah. try to give it rest and widen my vocabulary at the same time.
In the mean time,( haha), i shall also do some community service and help everyone widen their room-for-expansion vocabulary.
Synonyms of MEAN.
- bad-tempered,
- bitchy,
- callous,
- cantankerous,
- churlish,
- contemptible,
- despicable,
- difficult,
- dirty,
- disagreeable,
- dishonorable,
- down,
- evil,
- formidable,
- hard,
- hard-nosed,
- ignoble,
- ill-tempered,
- infamous,
- knavish,
- liverish,
- lousy,
- malicious,
- malign,
- nasty,
- perfidious,
- pesky,
- rotten,
- rough,
- rude,
- rugged,
- scurrilous,
- shameless,
- sinking,
- snide,
- sour,
- treacherous,
- troublesome,
- ugly,
- unfriendly,
- unpleasant,
- unscrupulous,
- vexatious,
- vicious
there! 44 synonyms for mean. but i guess sometimes, there is just no replacement for what u wanna replace. or sometimes, Y fix somethin when it's not broken?
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
HAHHAHAHAHAHAH. she is so HAHA today can?
firstly she is late.
then she confesticated maxine's notebook. AND look at it too.
and then, her style today is so Drama. kinda funny, the words she used.
her first agenda seems to be talking abt freedom.( why dun we wear the same dress to sch everyday? we can, what." WHO cares? who CAreS? " its not against the law...etc... why cant i put the feet up the table, if i am wearing pants...kinda like what rap lee said just now as in a student was fired in IPP for losing all the behavior, puttin the leg up and talking like a neanthedel IN FRONT OF THE CEO )
i guess its a fact that there will never be absolute freedom. i never want or need absolute freedom anyway. i guess i am just a natural follower who needs guidelines to feel NOT lost.
my parents kinda gave mi absolute frreeedom in a way though. i do what i want, and she can only try to persuade mi into what she wants mi to do and the truth is... she doesnt succeed most of times and end up being ignored. i know...i am BAD. and my dad usually ignore mi after i state my choice.
i guess t4 is not bad bah . overallll. her ATM friendster should be shut down le bah.
in his last class for this sem for MS0401, only abt 12 ppl came. kinda sad... almost feel like a last gathering with the lecturer who rather not be a lecturer.
and he is giving a kind of career-guidance talk. tellin us what to expect for TEP. and IPP attachments....a general overview of our days to come at NYP. sharin experience and tellin us abt the Things-Not-to-Be-Done.
he talked abt When is The Best Time to Get Sacked at IPP. ( third week), Endurance level..." tolerate the stupidity and nonsense for 16 weeKs...", the Run-Away student-Who-is-Afraid of People... he told us abt That One who really need some pyscho- help.... and Girls-who-Kana-Skirts-Flipped-Up..., Guy-who-Failed IPP-2-times....Saked for Stealing Things. AKA Temptation...
Hai...he really so funny and nice lah.............really will miss his style. and jokes..Runnin towards the scissors? WHAHAHHAHHAHAH.
Now he is sharing with us how heavy his workload is...sorta like, complaining? pouring out his fustration... abt this guy who STOLE MENTOSE. (if i never heard wrongly.) or is it a girl?
morale of this story? dont make mistakes coz this only increase workload for lecturers. increase admin work, blood pressure...
yesterday, after work, really CHIONG home to do stuff. run to catch the smelly train.i feel so proud of myself. managed to get a good piece of work done for SU's speakers series.Yong Siang, i really got no desire to waste my time at the meetings OK? all those crap and lame-juvenile jokes really hard to stomache.
this speaker series like, kinda interesting. Pasta Mania CEO comin to give a talk...
Sunday, July 24, 2005
i feel so unlucky.
its a Sign.
i am not destinied to have any fun. _bleaH_!
supposed to go east coast, BBQ and OF COURSE my MAIN POriTY IS TO SUN TAN... and IT HAS TO RAIN???
NOT drizzling ya nOe! its raining OVERWEIGHT CATS AND DOGS. no need sun tan liao man.
but ahmad tells mi east coast's sunny. should i go? it would be good to go out and meet new people... ... ... ... haiX.
today is a full day.
we learn how to play frisbee coz it was required for the SU camp. it was fUN. simply running around and catich a disc. humans are so easily entertained and i just am so easily satisfied.
basically the SU guys are aLLL lame like helllll!!!!!!!!!!!! sometimes its funny, entertaining but other times, it just plain chilldish , can?
they pilled people up on the cart.....and "drove" them around. i think i remenbered myself playing those kind of stuff......when i was still in p-sch though.
and they had a minor accident. damien's foot was run over by the wheel.....which also had the weight of 4 other guys... but he is OK. so no1 was bothered.
then rushed to work. they were talkin abt the company gathering where they r gona have a chalet and a bbq.( i wonder how many bbq i will be going to this few months.........)
and then, wati asked mi why my cheeks so red? i put too much blusher?
i where got put blusher? i yanked out a few inch of the tissue roll and scrubbed my face. it was brown with dirt lah, nothing red/ or even midly pink. she luffed like hell, and told mi i was burnt in a horizontal manner on my face. lol.
the conclusion is i am sunburnt when i played the frisbee for like, 1/2H.
but i t was fUn. very worth it/.=)
other sad things happen, but nothing is gonna change the fact , whether we managed to learn anything from our mistakes, our lives keep moving on. i wont knoe whether my decision is for the best, but at least i am comforted by the fact that my friend is behind mi and think i made the right choice.
in the mean time, sad things happen , happy things occasionally happen. but of coz. i will choose to be happy..........
Thursday, July 21, 2005
through msn conversation, i found someone likeminded.
someone who doesnt like to share mp3 files thru msn also!!!!!!! whahahhaha, an accidental discovery and it made a unhappy guy smile for a while. it just made mi luff in amazement coz i thought i was the only weirdo. oh and erm, yah, i dun mean u r weird.//////// lol.
and i formatted a new word to describe myself in a msn conversation with Mr Smart. he sais something about becomin like mi i,e.....
too blunt?
too honest?
so i suggest......................
lets call it blunest!=)
thanks mr smart.
media seminar. today. it was good. a learnin experience. alex look like a stick insect. deon look like a PMEB.
that manager? or whOever from batey red cell gave a few qoutable quotes in his 15 min speech. he is so so tall ! and has a slight english accent. he is also married.
the best one being. " I am not a thumb drive."
" i am NOT a thumb drive."
it is exactly my sentiment. i am not a thumbdrive, can u stop askin me to put so much information in my head? i doodled it onto the program sheet while stoning...
one of his slides was about Ignorance is bliss. totally agree. this is the stage people might arrived after suffering from information overload. i think i have arrived there.
been feelin so stressed. yesterday after work, study jap. or more accurately, tried to.
i fell asleep while studying. and when i woke up. i noticed part of my shirt was stained orange. thanks to the orange highlighter i was using...
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
A good comeback line is more worth than a million dollars.
it makes the person who provoked mi look like a pathetic, stupid, humiltated oxymoron which is exactly ( or when i am not sharp enough, about) what that moron deserves. it also makes the person regret ever on steppin on my toes purposely.
i love to talkin to zaw. our conversation is basically about who can come up with a better comeback line. i duno how come our relationship evolved into something like that. i think he kinda sculpt my too-brutally-honest character through years of such conversations.
was talkin to him just now.
and he went:" Hi IDIOT".
mi;" where????? where is that idiot?"
see ........a good comeback line helps to starved off such rudeness. the best thing is he never fails to awknowledge my successful retorts. esp when it really shuts him up. i love making him look dumb as much as he likes making mi look stupid. talkin to him is intellectually stimulating.
anyway.
thou shall noe better than to step on my toes purposely.
Monday, July 18, 2005
i guess. i have to thanks ALex aLOT a LOt for the projects which i were supposed to be in charge of.
i am just too slip-slop. could have Hai my whole grp had it not for him lah. imagine giving a out-of-point paper to hand in. was the overall IC but i only cared abt compliling. never really understood what the others were doing. feel so not pro.
cant wait for sch to end.
Thursday, July 14, 2005
the five of us went for lunch, as usual. but what was not usual was our conversation topic.
for ...........we were talking about...............................BGR!
hahah. its rare we talk abt it... coz not of us attached mah. this topic could be potentially depressing. but somehow we talked abt it today. why huh? forgot liao.
syax even talked abt the GF who could have been FOREVER but migrated to cananda. so sad. they would have been together if not the canada-issue. and the relationship was already 1/2 yr old..........so sad.............-tears-
so syaz asked how many ex i had. ( lesser than one hand. yes, tis the truth.) then, asked abt how many guys i rejected. lol. ( about 2 hands. round up 2 hands. but the actual no is less than 2 hands...) they wanna hear stories. but too bad i am private limited. lol. 2 bad kelly or maxine not there lah.
then, we can have The-NeverEnding-Story part.......103. lol. which reminds mi, i like the movie of the same name.
then S asked who dumped who in each of my relationship.( erm. mi.!) .......so i kinda appeared like a heartbreaker i guess.
the crux of this entry is here.
one of them said i am BUAYA. BUAYA? what the heck is BUAYA? so later i found out that... ...
BUAYA IS A FLIRATATIOUS PERSON USUALLY MALE.
sigh. so this person thinks that i am a flirt. sorta saddening that he would see mi as a flirt. i mean......not as if i flirtED with him. or he witness mi do such thing........... but seriously, i never see myself as a flirt b4. in fact, i would describe myself as......passive and wallpaper. i mean, if i flirt with guys, most of them would run AWAY , no? lol. sorta disgusting to put myself as in a flirt's shoes, doing what a flirt do.
and its also sorta disappointing to hear that coming from a friend. or some1 who i regard as a friend. who would pass such a judgement in a flash. to mi, a flirt is some1 who do not take love seriously. who just hop onto the train with the next best thing every time there is some1 new. it's like a degrading statement to my character and intergrity and my ai-qing-guan.
i used to think i belong to that ri-jiu-sheng-qing type. now i think i am a yi-jian-zhong-qing type. i guess, theoritically speaking, i still suppport the frist type. but so far, i displayed type 2 actions/.....
the bottom line is , its the little things that i care most about. if this statement came from some1 who i dun take as a friend, i probably wouldnt be so bothered.
so., whatever. perceptions are hard to change anyway. at least i noe thats the kind of words u would use to describe mi.
i have a friend who will be getting engaged. or at least seriously thinkin abt gettin married. and she is only 24.!!!!!! still a student and not even working. and here i am , already 18. suddenly, i dun feel at all young or carefrree. i am not even remotely attached. not even having a crush on any1. ............. let alone get engaged in the forseeable future. so i think i kinda envy her........ but getting married brings about another whole set of problematic issues................
6 years isnt that far away. where will i be ? climbing the corperate ladder? slacking at home?
will i still be alone? thats not so unreal, u noe? if thats coming true........ i think i better prepare to go somewhere where the population lacks girls.
P.S.....to U noe who u r.( hopefully) .appreciate your kind thoughts. but i just wanna walk alone. at least at that point of time.
Sunday, July 10, 2005
The Bottom Line
Take charge. Put a stop to any nefarious plans. Just say 'no way'! It'll go okay.
In Detail
You're not cold and impersonal, and you're probably quite tired of reading that astrological description of your sign. The truth is, you're just picky, and there's certainly nothing wrong with that. Once you find someone who measures up to your standards -- that is, someone who's entertaining, independent and intelligent -- you can be quite devoted. Someone who answers just that description may be along shortly. If you're already attached, prepare for a brand new best friend.
This is horoscope for me for the day @ friendster. and this is all the encouragement and proof and ( ah-hm...) Sign, i need. it's enough.
hmmmm. i just read my course-mate 's blog entry. i OF COURSE. WONT name HIS name coz I KNOW EVERYONE WILL KNOW WHO IS HE ANYWAY coz EVERYONE KNOWS HE IS THE GUY WHO IS THE CLASS REP OF THE NEXT CLASS.
in his blog, my name was IN FULL. WHY HUH? WHY WHY WHY? y must emphasize leh? it soMEhow just irrirates mi...A LOT. or maybe i just happen to be in a bad mOOd. ( i think its the case in this case....) BUT i just wan to say that he pointed out a verry good habit of mine. SUDDENLY say things at INAPPrOPERiaTE times.
yup. Just ONE WORD is enough to make you the butt of the joke.OOOPs. sorry. i try to be less mean next time. i sincerely will try and try my very best. i just didnt noe how big the impact was when i SUDDENLY say things which is ................FACTUAL( or maybe not..;) ).........at ANY time. but i shall try to be nicer K?
i KNOW i should. but i really duno y i cant. sorta like losing weight? always ALWAYS trying but not succeeding. i should keep my mouth shut. i should lose weight. i should exercise more. i should eat less. i should go study instead staying here. i should be happy instead of sad ....................................................
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So why I can't?
and i STILL CANT TAG ON MY TAGBOARD. SHOULD PICK UP SOME I.T LeSSON.
my worst fear came true.
he hates mi noW.
if he couldnt have everything. he wants nothing. i am so so.....sad mix with annoyance, mix with disappointment and mix with confusion , coz i dun understand y i bother to care so much.
=(...........
i mean, it is a So-What issue. he left no impact in my life except increase grey hair and blood pressure.
sigh. sigh. sigh. i guess, friendship iis so just important to mi. we really do share stuff in common and i thought he was a friend. so, when my friend starts ignoring mi through out the whole day and then , discontinuing any form of AtTEMPted converstation, i get upset...........=( he didnt even look at mi when he went away. that just.....was a slap in the face? a stab in the heart? so cruel. it is a like a constant reminder of my decision. which has results which backfire in my face.
so........i SHOULD JUST LET GO.
k.k just said he treasure our friendship and dun 1 to lose any1 of us as freinds.
yes. K.K , we are totally on the same platform, same frequency, same wavelength on this issue.
treasure freindship!!!!!
Thursday, July 07, 2005
we finally received the prize money from last sem's competition.!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and the org was even thoughtful enough to help us split the loot into the correct portions. lol. so we dun have to worry about how to split lah. good . good.
and 1 day after the IOC results were announced. london was bombed. its subway was blasted by a few bombs. hah. they r sayin its not IOC-related. lol. if it were IOC-related, Paris must saying "PHEW" big time.
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
i told R that ( once again ) that i dont like him. dont like the way he skip classses. dun like the way he has multiple peircing , dun like the way he plays mahjong, dont like the way he slacks......
guess he finally had it in his head that i just dont like him. i get the vibe that he is annoyed that i complain so much abt him...and then i told him Zaw's theory that girls should be harsher than just say i-wan-to-be-just-friends. and yah, he agreed with him. he would prefer mi doing that....
sometimes i think we r not alike,i will never skip a lesson for no good reason...i am just 2 guai..... but then again, sometimes not. when we really sit down and talk, we can get a conversation going with lots of laughter and whatever. we both r sO lazY and ...and acidic.....but when i know what kinds of stuff he likes to do... i just get so... annoyed?
anyway. he sms mi. it said;" i get what u mean. wont msg u liao. bye..."
what the........ this non-love-affair lasted about 3 -4 weeks? felt kinda empty when he said that. coz.....does this mean we cant even get a platonic relationship going? is he gonna be all weird and treat mi like a stranger...?
sometimes i wonder what would happen if he just ASK mi for a chance.ASK mi to be with him... the truth is despite the fact he told he likes mi, he never ask mi to be with him or WHAT. lol... so.........what am i supposed to say? sometimes, ask and u shall be given. ASK and u shall Receive...... ASK and i shall consider?
P.S/ omg....i am so so surprised to see mr SIM tag on my board!!!!!!! on my UNTAGGABLE board that even that smart-IT- ass lincoln cant tag!!!!!!!!!!!
Rlee is leaving us.............. sad lah sad./
know what he did today?
Rlee:" later the lecture u all wan or not. wont come out for exam 1."
heads shake.
Rlee;"ok lah. i noe u all dun1. i also dun1. so later cancel . no class."
wow! no lecture just like dat.
he is leaving us.................to join some civil defense thinggy which he wont say. despite the fact that he is not suited to be a lecturer-teacher....i still like him a lot. coz he so dammm slack and funny lah. (remenber "crisis, crisis. crisis AHH"? )
And, yah. my tagboard cookie is deactivated.!!!!!!!! thats y i cant even tag on my own board.
Monday, July 04, 2005
ok. here is a joke that made S luffed like a stupid asshole. WHAHAHAHA.
the last time i worked with Patrick, we were just talking abt contact lens, how he didnt wear and how he thinks i wear to make myself look better....
er hMMMM, i wonder what will he say if i tell him that my own mama told mi that i am prettier with specs...
anyway, so i said i wear lens for more convenience than asthetic reasons.
reasons i wear lens
-dun need to push the freakin metal up my non-existent nose bridge.
-dun need to worry abt some1 knocking into mi and hurting myself in the process
-way convenient when i play sports...=)
and when he know that, he went:" U PLAY SPORT? SURPRISED...U LOOK SO FEMININE!! YOU DONT LOOK THE TYPE LAH..."
( even as i typed this, S is luffing his head off....HmmPH!)
WHAT IS SO FUNNY ANYWAY?
and yah. i also agree with S that i dont look feminine...not usually anyway. lol. but this shows that i am just so highly versatile.
today is Youth Day...and we went to eat Pasta at J8...yum yum yummmy!
and today my youth day present from lincoln is a strangle-choke-grip delivered by him personally!
my GOD! pain , can? my face was all red as testified by Yiting....
how can a guy be so petty? Where is the gentlemanly behavoir?? As in, a guy should never touch( attempt to beat up/murder/ill treat ) a girl? He should instead just rebutt mi in the most original way..as in intellectually lah. i welcome a verbal sparring anytime.
to lincoln. YOU SHOULD BE HONOURED~. for i see u worthy to be my verbal sparring partner....lol.thats how i practised at being acidic and sarcastic. thats how i can turn it into an art form copyrighted by eve goh hui bee~.
but back to the story. i was just being my usual sarcastic mean self....which is my fault lah. but STRANGLE mi? too extreme lor. first its nicholas throw paper, then is damien strangle mi after my practical joke now is lincoln after a few too-honest comments. ( all right lincoln, i think u mean it as a joke....) why do they LIKE to strangle mi in the first place? they could have knock my head/ twist my arm/pull my hair....
looks like its time to curb my honesty when dealing with these guys.
Saturday, July 02, 2005
i am too analytical. whatever people do , i always assume there is gonna be a motive tht the person is trying to achieve. i mean, if there is nothing to achieve , then why should we bother doing anything in the first place?
there is always a reason behind what we do.
perhaps it is to achieve a sense of feel-good. my point is, whatever we do , there IS A MOTIVE OR PURPOSE.
and so/.
i just want to say. I HATE IT WHEN GUYS ARE ACTING WEIRD TO ME.
sigh. i hate it. the analytical mi will zoom into Action. they try to ask mi out to "Drink" or "See movie", with no1 else's name mentioned. Or there is the truckloads of underserved, un- called-for compliments......thats when i over-think stuff i guess.
i wish they would just come clean. TELL MI . i rather know. i rather not guess.
and i know for certain, R is a CMI. i know, because he behaved like my EX!@!!!!!!!!!!! how creeeppy is that? or maybe its the universal behavoir of lame-guys??? lol. i really dunno. really hope i dun need to face him ever again. he is like, so persistent lah. but i wonder how much is sincerity.
S said to woo mi, u need expensive dinners and gifts. lol. true, true to a certain extent.but most importantly, i am looking for sincerity. to show sincerity, u have to show that you are determined and serious abt mi. means, if at first u dun succeed, must try again.(alliyah's try agian, lyrics.) then hopefully, i will be moved and touched and persuaded by how true u r to mi and i will ask to be with you and live happily, crazily- in- love , ever after.
snd hopefully, by the time my heart softens, i have acquired enough experience of high class dinners and truckloads of expensive giFts..........
!!!!!!!mUahAhAHAaHaHaHa!!!!!!!!
Friday, July 01, 2005
as yongsiang sms mi about a helper. as i debated whether am i free to help out.., it was time to get outta the shop.
and" BANGG!!!!". then a response." AAAwwW!!"
i knocked my head into the metal door. i was too intent on replying the message that i didnt even know how low the door was left hanging. so i literately banged into the door...and i hopefully, suffer no brusies.
daphe had a great time luffing. i am glad to be of service.
and to fix a broken window. we really had teamwork going on. so funny lah. the whole process. we sounded like , we are in KK-birth-giving ward.
can u say LOL> i lol til i wanna cry lah.
Good deed of the day.: my co-workers helping mi fix the window together.
doer: daphe. patrick. wei li.
whahahahahha. so fuuuuuuunnnnnnnneeeeeeeeee!!!!!!