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Tuesday, August 02, 2005

just a few weeks ago, i just blogged that i really like talkin to Zaw coz its intellectually stimulating.
coz all he and i do is make each other look stupid verbally.

but now, i realized, this kind of conversation can get on MY NERVES. my mood is already bad to begin with ( feelin blue from all the lecture notes)... really dun need this at this time. its not 'intellectually stimulating' anymore, its just plain irritating and inconsiderate of my feelings/.

i really wish he knows that sometimes, i need to be cut some slack. i dun wan to be always coming up with come back lines. dun wan to be always arguing, debating, gettin critized over eveything from what i eat to what decisions i made to how i look.

i just wan to be a relaxing conversation that makes mi laugh instead of gettin mi all annoyed and stressed out.

friends r supposed to be there for each other, encouraging each other, giving advice when needed right? how come he dun do any of the above and only aims to destroy my self-worth everytime he bothers to talk to mi?

right now, i need some encouragement, affections and a shoulder to lean on ......or a pillow to sleep on. i dun wan to be belittled, made small, poke fun at... ...

so is he a friend ??

sure doesnt feel or seem like it at this time.

in a bad mood now.

i think if he ever gives mi some TLC someday... ... i will faint from surprise and astonishment or end up bawling like a Baby coz i am simply too touched.

4:20 PM

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