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Monday, April 18, 2005

sometimes. i suffocate.

because i feel that i cant communicate to people around mi mentally.

to G. PLS STOP SMSing mi.
i reply coz u were already a friend. if i dun reply. i just look like a freakin rude persoN. and besides, i dun wan u to flood my inBox. and i am not a rude person.

jesus christ!!!!!!!!!!! stop askin mi ' whatcha doin'. its none of ur business, really.
dun ask mi what time i go to school.
i dun need to noe abt ur 'sokka'.
i hate the way u spell the shortcuts.
i hate the way, u r sendin the signals,
i hate the way i might be jumpin at the wrong conclusions.
i hate havin to guess.
not knOwin. just guessin. and fearin am i makin the wrong guess?
should i give the benefit of doubt?

but really, i sometimes dread seein ur name when i have a new sms. its bound to be from u.

tO. O.
u r so So SOOOOOOO terribly childish and insensitive.
i feel almost afraid to be associated with when u r haVin this sort of non-kodak moments.
oh man, get a life!!!!!!!!!!! even thou u already have 1. apparently, its not enough.
once is enough. twice is MORE than enough, when u r doin it the third time or even the 2.5th time, its over the line and every1 knows it. and i just dun think i can keep my lunch down anymore. dont u even want a pretense of a mature image?

oops, i forgot. mature isnt what u r lookin for. is it even on ur dictionary? or do u just prefer to be sOoO childish and juV when u r already lookin at twenties?

its MEAN AND CHILDISH AND IT GETS ON MY NERVES.

tO.d.
met you but i dunno U. its a terrible thing to happen to mi.
i hate it.
they say at least i met U. if not, i wouldnt noe peOple like u can exist.
but i wish i didnt.
at least then, the people i see , wouldnt seem so inferior when u came into my mind.

to G.o.D
can i please be given a chance to pursue the possiblities that r swimmin in my head?
can i dun go through the same thing over and over again?
can i have some short cuts please?
can i have a black face and have my friends leave mi AloNe, but still be there for mi?
can i be a rich girl before i die?
can i escape from the mood-spoilin monents more often?

6:59 PM

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