Thursday, February 10, 2005
ok. let mi recount today in a way as detailed as possible.
we went to my ah-peh's house at BUkit panjang. its his house, and i am first time there. its a small four room flat.
then. i went inside, saw my cousins playing card. ha, they ask mi to join them. so i played tai0di and won~ hahah, too bad it was no money invloved. but whatever. then more people came in and got more crowded.
then,. my skinny auntie, mother of the cousins i was playing cards with, told i got fatter~~~~~~DOTS!!!!!!!!!!!!! how morale-breakin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY GOD!~ its sorta embarrassin also, i still wear Small , ok///!!!!!!!!!
then. i was sittin ard, with my female cousins, listenin to them. suddenly, it got to the topic of my mother who favours my brother. and they were like, fighting for mi, pitying and sympathising mi who never gets half as much as my brother gets in terms of montery support.
really, they feel for mi. and i got so sad and that i was wanting to cry. iTs new year!!!!!!! and i wanted to cry.
they:" when kor-kor was schoolin, u gave him $$$$ to spend. mei-mei schoolin has to go work to support her own spendin! she doesnt even ask form u!!!!!!"
Ma;" he no money whhhhhhhat/"
they;" she also no money. thats y have to work!"
i was just luffin and wonderin what do i have this kind of mother. i know she favours my brother. and i try not to notice or think too much abt it. its really suddening.
you know when they say, pregnant lady';s kid will kana whatever the lady curse to other people.??
well, when my ma is pregnant with mi, she cursed so many people. i have my grandma's lined hands and an aunt's round cheek. all the atttributes she doesnt think is pretty.
and my brother is so heartbroken, he didnt go bai nian, coz he didnt wana them ask abt her.
then, at 3, went to the mother;s side. my uncle's new house! so pretty.. a movie-screen for tv screen. it might as well be. it was so big.
then the youngest cousin like mi so much. i duno y. i think coz i am novel. she can really YELL AND SREAM LIKE HELL> my ears hurt just thinkin abt it. but she is the apple in the eye. coz she is youngest and the cutest.
all in all, this CNY is fine., i didnt even read the book i was anticipating to read// coz everything is tight and compact. no time waaste. YAH~