Sunday, October 18, 2009
the older i am. the more capable i am of appreciating the lyrics of songs which i listen.
they used to be just sounds- i dont really understand what is the message. nothing resonate with me anyway. now they are stories and sometimes one of them resonate with me & get stuck in my head.
the older i am the more sensitive i am to people. what they stand for and they mean to me. perceptions changes & suddenly i duno what they stand for. I wont be trying to ask for answers. i understand myself more with time & i shall stop thinking that i am scared of aging. i sometimes wish i have the wealth of experience, the forsight to make the best decisions that only comes with age.
life is a journey- to slowly savoured and appreciated.
what will come , will come. someone said it is easier to be a pessimist.
but i will settle for a little dash of hope in myself.
Sunday, October 04, 2009
it doesnt matter. just breathe & let time pass. & see what happens.
what will happen; will happen.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
i had a bad day... every slightest thing could rub me the wrong way , make me roll my eyes in distaste and feel disgusted. makes me want to keep myself and ignore the people next to me.
is this PMS? sigh.
always in a state of hoping, waiting, wondering & knowing there is no happy ending. it is tough. not moving forward in the right way. & how do i stop myself from doing so? truly & completely understand why people sometimes knowingly do the wrong things even though they could choose not to.
Sunday, September 06, 2009
i haven blush this hard in years.
my face was burning and i was so very embarrassed. i felt like i was transported back into secondary sch coz that was the last time i blushed so hard & i blushed over the same kind of issue as well.
BGR- teasing.
people really didnt have to be so gleeful that they have something to entertain themselves with.
but regardless of the teasing, it is nice to be able to see the colleague again. & i am not really sure when is the next time gonna be...
i always hate those scenes in idol dramas when the lead characters missed bumping into each other by mere twist of fate. or simply having a time difference of 3 seconds. or simply choosing to turn different directions.
it is heart wrenching to know and witness that.
life is never straight forward isnt it?
i got my hopes dashed TWICE by murphy's law. i am pretty crushed to say the least. the feeling of burst balloons must be what i am experiencing now. i am just left with airs of disappointments so bad that i feel like crying. cause by no choice of mine, i disappointed my best buddy.
i wish so badly to make my promise come true & its killing me that i cant fulfill it.
sigh sigh.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
isabella n edward.
they shouldnt be in love but they are. they shouldnt be together but they are. they should keep their distance but they arent.
all they want to do is to be with each other.
Saturday, July 11, 2009
i had no idea i could miss anyone so much. but i do now.
its as though there is literately a hole in the heart which only that person could fill. i just feel so uncomfortable with myself. so lovesick. so unlike me ...
=C
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
i am still hoping. hoping.